世界很大，我很渺小

“喂？” 忽然一通电话，让我从睡梦中惊醒。手机传出你兴奋不已的声音，“傻婆，我想去喝咖啡吃蛋糕，走！” 睡意还未散去的自己，回话：“ 不能啦，今天有事。” 对方直接叹气，“怎么最近那么忙？有什么故事和帅哥不介绍啊？” 猪，帅哥就自己藏好了。不想分享咯。“我要去参与活动，像以前读书那样搞活动。” 传来了傻婆的笑声，我知道你想我了。

最近，我加入了朋友的活动，他们称活动为MADDAY- Make a Different.
它像是对社会有需要的孤儿，老人与残障人士的关心、付出和贡献。
我把他们家简称为温馨屋吧。热心的朋友们把温馨屋全新翻新， 通过筹款，捐赠和劳力。
这次的活动我成了我朋友的Special Guest（不是他们一个团体，但只是自愿去参与）

活动前一晚，一部分的我们留宿在其中一个朋友家。在完成所以后续工作后，大家开始聊起心事，那晚后我好惊讶。听着大家经历的故事、经验和给予的意见，忽然觉得自己好渺小。世界好大，而我还没扩大自己的视野。大家经历过的事是多么忐忑，而在我觉得很痛苦的那段日子根本就不算什么，我真的还是个乳臭未干的小孩。
在那晚，从大家的沟通的方式和思考，我还那么的无知。
在感情问题里，其中一句话让我惊讶。
“你要试着用心去沟通” 心？不管是身边的朋友或自己，从来都没有出现过这句话。
或者这就是大家一直都遗弃的“用心”。 现在的我们已经不明白怎么去用心去对待了。

活动当天一早，在享用过简单的早餐后，大家聚在温馨家前，队长给了个简说今天的行程安排，会议完毕后，大家带出的正能量与团体的合作精神，真的很不一样的体验。大家工作的精神和态度真的很不一样，他们不是因为做而做，而是自己真的用心想去做。我没听见他们抱怨辛苦、恶心或肮脏，却看见他们很认真开心的打扫。是不是因为大家都用心去喜欢这样的付出而发自内心的享受当下的幸福。大家的相处方式真的很温馨，见到对方就是个很友善的拥抱与打招呼，感觉真的不一样。他们对我也不像是陌生人，很快的就成为朋友。

用心爱的力量真的可以很大，而我从他们身上看见的真的很多自己从来都没有去思考过的事物。世界真的很大，而我真的好渺小，看见的事物还在那圈子里。大家不管是年龄、个性、背景、经验等全都不一样，却可以变成一个团体。认识和获得的知识真的可以很广。

这次的体验，真的让我领悟好多好多，原来用心去爱去做真的很不一样。我真的还是无比的渺小，要去学习和看见的事物还很多，我真的开始在奔跑，去追的也不只是梦了。真心想学想做想看见的东西真的有好多，或者在读着我的感想的你，真的很难去理解我的领悟，但不得不承认我真的是用心才能看见，用心去感受那份爱。明年真的会是个大转变，在我人生的转折点我想要你看见我的改变，而看见我真正的自己，你从中体会到的领悟。我会证明我的改变，让你同时发现真正的自己和那股冲劲。

By yukie=3

我的愿望是快乐

My Best experiences in Chiang Mai - Water Rafting

你好，部落。最近灵感又开始泛滥了，就开始我的故事吧。

昨晚的夜晚特别安静，自己涌入被单里的时间格外的早，一整天无法入睡却怎么也不觉得困，心里总有很多的声音不停地徘徊。最后决定拿起手机拨通给了他。我们聊了将近一个多小时的通话。通话里我们聊了彼此对事情的看法、思想、感情，当然也有一些八卦。

一年不见的我们仍然话题不断，聊不停。 他开口说道：“一年不见的你，真的长大了。思想真的成熟了。真的替你开心。那时迷失自己的你找回自己的立场了。” 谢谢你。那时候的自己也是找了他聊，是他的话让自己站好自己的立场，坚定自己的想法，而不去变成不了解自己的人口中的傀儡。他告诉我，我就是我，很有想法主见的自己，并不是活在别人的影子里。

真的，现在的自己不管是想法还是心态，像是忽然受了很大的打击，360度的大转变。

或者你会质疑，改变真的就是口中说出的说变就变吗? 不，真的不简单的改变，我也在心里打了一场架，翻开许多回忆的记录，才找到自己。

或者你有听说过因为无形压力或心理障碍，而关闭自己。曾经的我一直都觉得自己过得很好，每天笑着能过一天就一天的日子。我没特别暴饮暴食，也有在运动，但体重却渐渐增加，心情并不怎么糟糕，但心其实就一直很累，想哭却怎么也哭不出。一有心事就往心里压，却被身边的人发现了。或者那时他与她用心看穿我了，他们告诉我，其实你有曾经何时是有在发自内心的快乐过。就在我生日那天，我掉了压抑很久的眼泪，我打了电话给我家人告诉他们我爱他们，放下了当年的遗憾与执着。

直到现在，我慢慢学会寻找自己，面对自己一直逃避的问题，达成自己一直很想完成的一点一滴，我的体重忽然慢慢下降，我朋友告诉了我，那就是原因为何自己一直都瘦不下来，原来是心情。当你用不一样的心情去看待每件事，事情就会不一样。放下执着，选择不一样的心态和心情去看待或对待身边每一个人，得到的结果真的会不一样。

或者在迷惘的你，还是不明白我描述的心情或心态，当你用心去看待这世界，你会真正感受到这世界其实很美好。如果真的很复杂，请你先好好爱自己。当你学会爱自己，你就会渐渐明白什么是用心去体会。

在我2016的生日，我许了个小时候一直都很单纯想要的愿望，看来它真的实现了。
谢谢愿望实现，谢谢你的守护，谢谢你对我的爱。

By Yukie=3

当我想追上你的脚步

今晚的你一如往常，喜欢夜晚的景色，所以每晚都会换上了运动服到户外夜跑。
你忘记了当初自己为何爱上在夜晚跑步，但却一直坚持至今。

今晚在跑的途中，天不做美，忽然下起了细雨。雨水拍打在你的脸上与汗水交际，顿时你停下脚步，抬头一看，怎么还是寻找不到她的影子。

当时的你恍然大悟，呆呆地看着前方。雨水一直落在你脸上，你已感觉不到那时泪水还是雨水。你不断在反问自己，自己到底怎么永远都做不够好，不够让她为你的好而心动。
你与她的回忆忽然想日夜不断播放的电影，断断续续地出现在你的脑海里。

你记得她喜欢咖啡，你总是为了她寻找各式各样的咖啡，一起去品尝。
你记得她喜欢巧克力，你每次都会送她一盒在特别的日子里。
你记得她很喜欢运动，因此你为了她加入了健身房的会员，偶尔去偷偷看着认真运动的她。

你知道她喜欢挑战自己，总是喜欢完成马拉松，你不喜欢但却因为她的参与而就报名了。
也因此你慢慢逼自己爱上跑步，想慢慢追上她的脚步。

后来你才发觉自己不知为了什么，而习惯性去完成了自己并不怎么喜欢的事。
这样的你已失去了自己，而忘记了自己其实一点也不喜欢咖啡，因为你不喜欢苦涩的味道。
也忘记了自己不喜欢健身房，因为自己在健身时根本就是在闹着玩。
因为之前打球过量而伤了膝盖，却还是逼着自己努力追随着她的脚步。

最后你发现原来爱从来就不是只是单纯地配合她，跟随她的脚步就是爱的方式。

爱我，请无需跟随我的脚步，我脚步不停歇，我的改变只会吓坏还没准备好的你。
那就是永远的距离。

Yukie=3

如果还有爱，就去相信吧

#丢回清迈之旅

当夜晚的脚步渐渐接近，心里涌起的灵感越强烈。当你从朋友口中得知原来自己乱掰的文字与情绪发泄曾经感动了他，你写回心情故事的动力越是无法停止，请相信当下你想要做的动力，不要等待，不要犹豫，想做就做。机会永远只给有准备的人。

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我记得那晚细雨如此缠绵，连续下几小时。你约彼此在家露天白色咖啡厅，推开门，一股浓郁的咖啡香气扑鼻而来，眼前身着围裙的服务生对你淡淡的微笑以表示欢迎。你选择了左边最尾端的角落位子坐了下来，由于比约定的时间尚早，你先点了杯热咖啡来唤醒睡不好的样子。

我第一个抵达，却选择在咖啡厅门外偷偷看着你。看见脸怀心事的你正在看着手上电话的屏幕，一次又一次的失望。那空白的等待，眼角浅浅的泪水。我忍不住走向了你，递了张纸巾。傻瓜，你在哭什么。当你双眼对视，便一把抓着我，头往我怀里塞。我给了你紧紧地拥抱。又哭又闹地告诉我你的故事。最后我看见你坚强的笑，那强忍痛苦的逞强。

爱，真的不是你有多爱就足够，不是你付出的分量就可以，不是你想要就拥有，不是你给于对方全部就是完美。爱，是本永远没有完结的书，怎么也读不完，也学不会。或许你谈了不少恋爱，累积不少爱情的经验，经历无法想象的困难，但到结尾你告诉我，我怎么都还搞不懂爱是怎么回事。

女孩过于执着于爱对方，而失去自己。她连自己的喜好都不晓得，全部的自己是何时变成只有对方。过于在乎对方而忽视自己，忽视对方想要的私人空间，过于控制对方的生活，而造成了对方的冷淡。或者给彼此一个机会去找回真正的自己来换另外一个方式去爱对方，如果还有爱，就勇敢面对问题去解决，给彼此机会去挽回感情，去渡过这个障碍。

如果还有爱，就去相信吧。


by Yukie=3

A Beginning

Credited from my childhood buddy 

Hey Readers! I come back to blog again. (Last blog post is on March..OMG!) Should I need to announce I am back here again?LOL. Finally I remember my blog log in password (I tried a lot of time..) Recently I am fine doing my own stuffs (eg. Work hard Play hard!) I enjoy my life with travel, works, food, gym and others. Let me summarize about my current status first!

-Career life-

Yes, I still doing exactly the same job almost 2 years until now. My job isn't bad as what you guys thinking but I going to run my own future planning soon. 

-Relationship-

Yes, I am still single and available from last year break with my ex. I enjoy my current freedom but sometime feeling lonely. I love being alone but it can be better to have someone beside. Because of my last relationship, I getting more careful on choosing the right person. 

-Personal-

I just back from my company trip to Korea. It is quite fun and nice trip but it is too rush for whole trip that I totally cannot relaxing on that trip. Everyday rushing time rushing to a lot of places and even food also rushing to finish it. I will plan to travel to Korea next time...

I actually have a lot of stories to blog about myself but it will write until tomorrow also cannot finish it. Today blog post just a beginning, will blog more when I am free!

By Yukie=3

I'm BACK!

#Forever Single selfie

Hi GUYSS! Finally I'm back! 

I think I almost few months never touch my blog. Never open; Never view; Never update! 

Today post will just simply share my personal storiesss. 

What did I done recently? Erm..it is quite long story..

Yes! I am still working the same company.

YUP! I am still SINGLE! Nope. Nobody want a girl like me. XD

Huh? more details? 

OKAY. Let's it begin.

Recently, I still working as Company Secretary in the same company after I graduate. Why didn't change company? Almost? Who know? Working fun? Ya. I enjoy. My friends say I am totally enjoy life with my job. Besides working, I quite active in social with my colleagues, friends and personal hobbies. 

Gym? yes. I now just begin to gym everyday if can. Lost weight? I feel guilty that I have gain weight because skip gym for few months. but I am going to get back my previous weight don't worry! I am proud to share I just done my 12km marathon twice! it will still counting. Since when I become so sporty? I spend all of my time in sweating. Sweating make me forgot about bad feeling especially losing someone that loved. When running, I can calm myself and release my heartache feeling.

Love? Nope. I have nothing to talk about it. Why should we love? Why should we choose to hold a person's hand to walk toward our future? I am single for almost over half year. I know I will miss him sometime. I miss our memories until now the photos I still cannot delete all. I think I haven't ready for fall in love with someone else. It still hurting maybe? I still can't find my heart yet. Time may heal my broken heart.

I will stop until here, will update more my story soon!
Good Night.


 

4/8/15

从没想过爱情原来是像那高高在上的摩天轮，不断地在轮回。
几年前我失去了爱，最爱的他爱上了别人，挣扎了两年，哭了好几个晚上，傻傻地过着日子。好不容易爬出了失恋。我找回了自己，重新遇见了你。我提起了勇气，踏出了和你。好不容易辛苦建立的感情，原来是场笑话。

现在却又回到了原点。我从黑色长头发剪成了黑短发。
好不容易为了你留回了长发，却又回到当初失恋的短发。

哭也哭够了，颓废也颓废够了，闹也闹够了，玩也玩够了，
剪短头发，剪掉回忆。
是时候从失恋里爬出来了吧?
对不起爱情，看来我们真的没有什么缘分吧。


Yukie=3

告别三年

沉睡了三年的梦，是时候清醒了。
梦里男孩一只手牵着女孩的手，另只手抚摸女孩乌黑的长发。男孩低下头，把脸贴近女孩的右耳，轻声地说道: “ 不管未来发生什么事，我一样会这样牵着你。不用害怕。我不会是你之前爱的他。” 女孩点点头。

在那晚，女孩收到电话。男孩的背叛。女孩的眼泪不知流了多少，女孩把自己锁在了房间，哭了好几天。男孩的背叛始终得不到解释，就算成功找到男孩，却只是讽刺的话。
男孩不解释，却只是告诉女孩，他不开口挽回，因为没资格。
女孩因为依赖，信任与爱，继续原谅了他。

女孩的眼泪并没停止，男孩一次又一次的欺骗与背叛，让女孩一直挣扎在爱与不爱之间。
或者女孩真的太傻，傻得看不清醒，不理智。爱让一个人失去的不但是理智，就连自己也失去了。女孩的伤口不断不断裂开，鲜红的血流不止。
在男孩眼中，他看见的是无理取闹，无关痛痒的眼泪。

女孩学会缝上伤口，学会坚强。她让自己的爱慢慢一点一点锁在安全的盒子里。
从一百，慢慢减少至零。
在默默保护自己，在痛苦的生活里为小事而快乐。
在离开男孩前，努力在装备自己。

终于梦醒了，女孩自由了。
就当作那是一场梦，现在不爱了，但曾经爱过。
一起的第一年是最美好的。就让它成为回忆吧。

我不会飞的专属超人

你好部落，我终于终于绕地球一圈回来了。莫问我过得如何。
生活反反复复，傻乎乎得过了一大半日子。
上周末，自己在家独自看了一本想看很久的书，我费了一天半的时间在看。终于看完了。
就是这本[打喷嚏]。这本书其实是我妹买了好几年，但就觉得书的封面让我以为是青少年读物，始终启动不了我的热情。由于朋友的热烈推荐，便去认真阅读。

书的内容真的超乎我想象。
"我的情敌是超人"
这和现实生活很相似。
你爱的那个她是不是已经拥有了超完美的他了? 虽然他不是超人，但是不是在她心里已经是个超人。
我或者不比他完美，但我愿意为妳认真奋斗，超越自己的极限，甚至努力的在超越妳心里的超人。
我成为不了牵着妳手走入教堂的超人，但我会是奋不顾身的保护你的专属超人。

到书的尾端，我感动的是主角那为她成长，奋斗的一幕幕。
爱让人努力改变自己，努力奋斗。
谢谢妳的出现。
激发不为人知的体格，超越人们想象的爆发力。
让我找回真正的自己，做妳专属的超人。

女孩，你身边是不是已经有个你未发现的专属超人？

By Yukie=3

Dinner @ Simply Fish Restaurant, Melaka

Hello Blog! Finally I get back my mood to blog again. Today post is about my Hunting food dairy. Last Friday, I went to the new open branch of Simply Fish near Kota Laksamana, Melaka with my cousins. I think their main branch is at Melaka Raya. It is almost 8pm something. Their restaurant still has many customers and their restaurant has limited seat. If you come with a large number of people, I suggest you should reserve the seat first. 

The entrance of the restaurant. I love the design of their restaurant!

Their menu. It is very cute!

My cousin busy with his phone.

 The restaurant use the blue ocean theme as their design. I love their design because it feel like very romantic! haha. The restaurant surrounding with blue color! very nice! It make you feel like eating inside sea! LOL!

Hot Japanese Green Tea and Orange juice 

My cousin

After few minutes, Our dinner served.

I ordered Marinara spaghetti. It is pasta with tomato source and seafood.
RM 18++

My cousin's Marina Fish chop with butter source and rice. RM18++
My cousin say the rice is too weird. If it replace with fried will become better.haha. I love the pan-grilled fish! It is very fresh.

The Hawaii Chicken chop that ordered by my cousin. RM17++
It taste not bad! The chicken chop not oily and the fried really nice.

After eating, we chit-chat and taking some photo around.haha

The restaurant mainly and popular with their fish and seafood dishes like fish and chips. So, I think I should try their Salmon next time. Their services also not bad. We being served by their waiter without waiting too long. The taste of food and drinks also not bad. I can give 4/5stars. Their price is reasonable and similar with the others western restaurant. I may visit next time when free. haha!

For your convenience, here is the information for the Simply Fish Restaurant.

205 & 206 Jalan Melaka Raya 1

Taman Melaka Raya

75000 Melaka, Malaysia

http://www.simplyfish.com.my/

(+6)06-2867697

11.00 am - 11.00 pm

By Yukie=3

Hawaii Party @ Hotel Equatorial Melaka

The blog post for today is about the Hawaii Party Birthday Celebration. The birthday girl is my boss's younger daughter. We reach there about 7pm. The party start at 7 something. All the guests starting to enjoy the food.

The stage with hawaii decoration!It is quite nice.

Actually there is a swimming pool beside, but I din't take photo because it is too dark.

The dessert bar. I love their fruit tarts. It's taste sweet.

I totally disappointed with the food they serve. The food not really nice as I expected.

Salad bar.

Mini buns and Tom Yam Soup

The food totally can't satisfy my stomach. I feel hungry during midnight...

Some photos with my colleagues.

After dinner, the event party started.

The emcee of the night: the audit manager 

Here are the candidates that may chosen as the most 'Hawaii' girl and boy. 

The winners!

Besides that, we also play some funny games.

After the games, it is the time to sing birthday song for the birthday girl.

Check my outfit of the day.
The dress I bought it when travel to Sabah. Heels from my colleague.

Last, We have dancing party.

The End of tonight!

By Yukie=3

Overnight @ Hatten Hotel, Melaka

After graduate, I am lucky to get a job offer within one week. My job position is Secretary. How you know about secretary? You must think that the secretary is sound like sitting in front boss's office to record appointment, get coffee to the boss and others. but mine is different. We are Company Secretary. We usually do all the paper works and prepare documents that requested from clients. Our documents mostly related with the Company Act. Our department look a bit similar with lawyer firm but we are more efficiency than the lawyer firm. My company is not the BIG FIVE of international but is big five in Melaka.haha.

Actually the company offer me low salary and poor benefit but the colleagues are very friendly. We are close with each others. The company always has the company activities monthly which include company vocation and birthday celebration.  Get a company has vocation always my wishlist! haha.

After I shortly introduce my company, I will share my August company activities with you all! The August activities is staying one night at Hattern Hotel, Melaka and Hawai party at Hotel Equatorial, Melaka.

On that day, my colleagues and I together check in hotel room on about 3pm.

The lobby of hotel

After check in, we rest in room a while. 

Want some coffee? 

We are three in one room. Two single bed combine together.

toilet

the beds

For the guests, each person will get one free "Welcome Drinks" from the Alto Sky Lounge which located on 22nd floor. It is available on 4pm til 8 something night. 

The Alto Sky Lounge may look romantic at night I think...It seen like very normal during day. We choose to sit inside because the outside is super hot...

Here are the Welcome Drinks! It's taste like juice! haha
Not bad. the important is FREE!

After that, we going for swim. I love the swimming pool! It is quite clean.

A small bar table there but nobody.

We miss the sauna because it is under maintenance. The Hatten Hotel, Melaka really nice! Their facilities also not bad but only the room wifi is quite hard to connect...For me, the most important is CLEAN!! I strongly suggest to the tourist who wanna travel Melaka but I think it is quite over budget.

The End.

By Yukie=3